I am a woman who fell in love with a man but our relationship started to end when I got pregnant of my first daughter. Because he started to abuse me since we got our first baby.
He never accept me as a person who talented since then. It was completely different we were started was 7 years ago from that time. As he changed his attitude bad made me realized he is so stupid. Then one day I found myself I don't love him at all any more.
The relationship had been dangerous since our initial but there was no way home back for me.
​I mean there is no family for me thus they all exist but a man in love affair was the only one who cares and helps me.

When ex husband found that I don't love him at all then invited me a date was since 8 years been while.
I crushed Marcus Miller at the date ex hus invited was a live show of Marcus Miller. 
So Ex husband brought me to Marcus Miller by himself. 

Because if I invited it, ex refused it.
A change came to me and I fell in love with Marcus Miller. I wrote him everyday.
And he replied me at each time. But I wrote about thoughts of my music experiences only. And he replied me by music. That's all.
But ex husband became so outraged about our communications with much jealous and abused me much more violence than before after I crushed Marcus Miller though ex had beaten me long time before crushing MM.

Beating my face. Hitting my shoulder and crushing mine. The violence was more than I had been through.
It was also a hard time for ex had been through a bankrupt. But I also got bankrupt because of his bankrupt. I needed to find my work since that time. Honestly saying I felt like this is my turn to challenge the world.

Thus I helped his work and that was not enough for me as my work. Our goal was rich family and we failed.
and I felt like the motivation for money might be wrong. So I needed to find my way depend on my true heart for life time work. I believed money thing is next thing not top thing.
If I could find my true heart money will follow. I had been struggling to find my way for long time since my ex and I started to live together. I was 20 years old he was 23.
cooking nails sawing. but all failed.

Cooking was very close to my heart but it said different. 
and I found that was music. A month after of my decision of Music suddenly Marcus Miller appeared into my life.
I fell in love and I felt destiny about my music motivation. 
He gave me understandings I have never met in my life time about my music experience and my taste and recognized my music knowledge as intelligence. Through communications with Marcus Miller a motivation was born "I want to make something."
But all people around me stood against me about music way with saying it won't be money especially who knows about my gift and talent said like that.
So it was my misery enough my world don't allow me to be myself.
​And instead, they require me to be a labor for them.

​I left my daughters because no way to be with at that time.
​But ex and his family abused my daughters to ban to see their real mother with real affection for them.
To ​whip me who abandoned a guy who ex.
At the same time my own family abused me and I lost everything.
​Same things happened to my daughters at same time after completely we were apart and we have been far away in many reasons.

I deeply regret I left my daughters at divorce period.
But it has huge difference between "1 take care 2"  or "3 take care 2" in any time.
1 was big problem for me without any money deposit for them who were 4 and 6 years old little girls at the time.
I am a completely isolated single mother.
​I have been totally alone since my divorce especially the judge court started.  No family or even no one to chat.
But I could not forgive myself when I think of my daughters have been struggling because of my absence. 
Our breakup just hurt two little daughters who has no evil but loves for me and no fault at all to have misery.
my regret led me suicide a lot of times and scared me so much as daughter's suicide. Because I see their future same as mine. Alone. Solitude at worst. and elder daughter once confessed me "I want die" when she was 6 years old when I describe why ex husband ban to see each other to her. I explained "His Jealous it is" That word is not enough for her seemed she did not reach understanding. So I added, Jealous is the feeling when you feel when your little sister admires than you.
She started to cry after my words then said I want to die.
​When I heard this word she might be in this jealous stimulation in many ways same as I've been through.
​By her real father and real father 's  grand mother and step mother added now.
In DEVILmama's case that was my real mother and real sister, ex husband and his mother added later on.
 I could not forgive EVILS around her who led this feeling.
ex and his family said that they won't let my daughters until they reach 20 years old.
​That's why I open this site to let my daughters know the real situation of mine and theirs.
Because EVILS lies and changes reality and truth as they wants.

​I would love to share about my love with my daughters 
and how my daughters are angels so much
on this page CLASS ANGEL.